that they'll never do the things that they wish they could do so well

I have my wishlist up at amazon.com

I chose to do it at .com instead of .ca since they have more stuff, but naturally i don't really care where the products come from. I don't usually like putting in messages for other people here, since I still want this as my personal journal.

So, back to regular programming.

I visited Ellen today. Her ovaries are intact. i'm glad we are comfortable enough that we can talk about her ovaries. We laughed a lot as we are prone to do... there was some disclosure of personal stuff. Some bonding, some complaining about work. Boy, is her company in bad shape. I really hope she had fun, even though we didn't do much but talk. Breaking the monotony of recovery and saving her from daytime TV (everybody gets one!).

When I called her to tell her I was coming today, she seemed surprised. She thought I was just saying I was going to visit in our previous correspondence. Am I some kind of insincere monster?

The modded gang (+Tim -Richard) had some good times on Monday. We actually beat the Lord of the Rings co-operative board game... man it was hard. I realized how uncomfortable with any sort of attention, even good attention near the end of the night when everyone was laughing at some wacky thing i did (i wasn't thinking).

You keep lying when you ought to be truthing

My current seven ideal Jeopardy categories:

• Lose weight without trying
• 2 habits of highly effective people
• Hibernate 3 and MyFaces 1.1.1
• Mounting colossi
• Frugal futility
• Disappointment is a 14 letter word
  

Where would we walk? Where would we run?

I like taking the same tests as my friends and seeing if we get similar results. These are tests from Linda's livejournal... we both have Butterfly eyes, but her life is a whopping .3 higher!

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	6.3
Mind:	6.7
Body:	5.3
Spirit:	6.8
Friends/Family:	5.3
Love:	7.3
Finance:	7.2
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

BUTTERFLY EYES

You have Butterfly
Eyes!
Positive Traits: Thoughtful,
Intelligent, Humble, Clever, Open
Minded
Negative Traits: Elitist,
Conceited, Apathetic, Cold, Sarcastic


Your eyes are the windows to your soul. What type of eyes do you have?
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I've got a full tank and some chips

For some reason the first thing I thought of when I woke up today were the three moments of my life that I felt the most ditched (even though I pretty much never think on this subject, they came to me almost immediately):

#3: When I was about 8, I was arguing with my mom about something on the way to her car in a plaza, and she just drove off without me.

#2: In one of the first New Years Eves that I celebrated with the gang, they decided to see a movie, but I don't think I knew which one... I was a bit late and found no one waiting outside the entrance for me, so I just went home. I realize it was my fault for being late, but "the movie was starting" never seemed like a good enough reason for me.

#1: When I was 7 or 8, I found out that my dad was not coming over to Canada to live with us. I just accepted it the way kids do. In typical chinese fashion, my dad cited money reasons... there was more money to be made in Hong Kong, and he could support me better from there. He was wrong. I never really understood it growing up. I didn't blame myself or anything, which seems to be all the rage in movies and tv shows or whatever. I'd probably smack someone who tried to tell me it's not my fault over my parent's divorce and my dad abandoning me in Canada. I think my dad was frightened of leaving his entire life behind, and the only environment he had known... and maybe that's why I'm so amazed when people want to pick up and move to another country. Is fear inherited? I mean, I cite my love for everything here as the reason, but who knows. I'm a complicated man.