this could be heaven, this could be hell

Well, I can't really count my resolutions broken, because I've been dying for the last couple of days. As it is, I still have much of the will to continue... I have the japanese learning CD ready to go.

I hate being away from work for more than a day... I feel like I have so much catching up to do.. oy.

Mediator You scored 27% physical, 50% magic, 38% versatile, and 61% good!

Your talents lie not in strength or magic, but your ability to get your way through talking to people (and sometimes other things.) You prefer to avoid fights and can often work your way out of them. As the name implies, you are also good at regulating disputes between other people, preferring peaceful resolutions to combat. But in a tight spot, you can also destroy enemy morale. You're handy to have around, but unfortunately there are times when talk will simply fail.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 14% on physical You scored higher than 61% on mystical You scored higher than 34% on versatile You scored higher than 53% on good

Link: The Final Fantasy Job Class Test written by Artscrafter on Ok Cupid

T.S. Eliot! You scored 16 Demeanour, 0 Debauchery, 0 Traditionalism, and 25 Expression!

You're a perfectionist. You believe that perfection is possible. You even demand it from yourself. There are many ways of doing things, it's just that your ways are better. You're usually a little pissed off that the rest of the world isn't as perfect as you are, so you alternate between citicizing it and mocking it. Occasionally, you let your softer side show, but not very often. You're probably a cat person. Your masterpiece is "The Waste Land".

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 6% on Demeanour You scored higher than 1% on Debauchery You scored higher than 1% on Traditionalism You scored higher than 8% on Expression

Link: The Which Famous Poet Are You Test written by Torontop on Ok Cupid

my favourite poet! What are the chances!

Wolverine You scored 80 Hero Points!

The badass from Xmen. You're real name is James Howlett , but you dont know that. You hang out with the Xmen but only really to bang Jean. You can heal and have claws that extend from your knuckles. They make a cool can opener

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 68% on Hero Points

Link: The Which Superhero/Savior Are You Test written by Etchelion on Ok Cupid

Maybe you're scared to say "I'm falling for you"

New resolutions:

• Go through a bit of the Japanese learning CD everyday
• 20+ push-ups/day
• Write a bit into http://spiritualhero.blogspot.com/ everyday
  

I know you know, I see you smiling at me

Don't go dead on me
I need you here to breathe
to hold me when I cry
to ease me when I bleed

Giving up Tekken was a hard thing to do, but I'm glad to see her so happy about her costumes and everything.

There's something about skating, and being on the ice, that threatens to isolate you, despite the number of people around you. I'm usually pretty spacey, but being on the ice just amplifies it. Maybe it's the repetitive motion, but I always want to reflect like the surface below me.

Get on your bikes and ride!

I will say, I can treat you to dinner, if that will make it worth your while.

And I will feel worse.

I need you here to breathe

How do you tell someone that doesn't care?

I am a bad person. I am a house full of condiments and no food. I moon over people not calling or caring but I never call nor write either.

I am Jack's mutilated ego.

Taste her fuller every day

Take the quiz at dicepool.com

You are a good old-fashioned six-sided cube, otherwise known as a d6. Others know you to be plain, predictable, conservative, average, ordinary, and downright boring. You prefer to describe yourself as dependable, honest, practical and trustworthy. People usually know what to expect from you, since you rarely hold any surprises. You hate to make decisions, and if forced to decide, you'll always fall back on how it was done in the past. You always order the same thing at your favorite restaurant, and your jokes, while funny, are never too offensive. It seems that you are well liked, but maybe that's simply because there's nothing to hate.

Unicorn You scored 40% Esotericism, 34% Power, and 24% Malevolence!

The unicorn is a legendary animal. It is usually portrayed as a slender, white horse with a spiraling horn on its forehead, although its appearance and behavior differs, depending on the location. In the west it was usually considered wild and untamable, while in the Orient it was peaceful, meek and thought to be the bringer of good luck. There it is usually depicted as a goat-like creature, with cloven hooves and a beard. In Japan it is called Kirin, and in China Ki-lin. The word "unicorn" is based on the Hebrew word re'em ("horn"), in early versions of the Old Testament translated as "monokeros", meaning "one horn", which became "unicorn" in English. The creature is possibly based on the rhinoceros or the narwhal, a marine creature with one horn.

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 24% on Esotericism You scored higher than 32% on Power You scored higher than 31% on Malevolence

Link: The Mythological Profile Test written by LacedWithASmile on Ok Cupid

All you have to do is fall in love

I'm back on a Queen kick. Bicycles and Fat-Bottomed Girls forever!

I just took this test over at http://www.gone2thedogs.com/
It seems supernatural that I am a Lowchen (petit chien lion), which is in the family of Bichons (BeBe is a Bichon Frise). When pruned and clipped, this dog resembles a miniature lion, and is good-natured and intelligent.

He's got nobody left to believe

Somebody left an old rusty bike chain onto the sidewalk today. It was extremely rusted, and the rust tainted the snow around it. I felt sad as I walked past it.

I'm trying desperately not to develop a complex over this, but... I'm so weak. I asked Linda if she still wanted to hang out tonight even though we have no session, and she replied "To do what?". I never have an answer to that. To me, my goal is just to hang out and spend some time with her, so I figure we'll figure something out. But I think I'm just too boring... she still can't imagine anything we can do together. I'd be happy doing anything, but she wouldn't. It made me very sad, even though I know that is just the way she is. "If you'd like", "I don't know what we'd do though". Daggers.

Just put your tiny daggers in my heart.

I also had nightmares. I'm not sure if it was related... I had a little trouble sleeping after that. I dreamed of some great evil that a group of innocents (including me and apparently Nads) were trapped in, and I couldn't save them all. Nads told me that I was freaking out at night and I screamed her name and it scared her. I curled into her arms and went into another nightmare.

Every night I burn, every night I scream your name.

I'm so lucky to have her. I suffer the guilt of someone who knows that they are getting better than they deserve, and yet still want more.