What if I say I'm not just another
Most days, you wake up okay. But what if one day, you don't wake up okay? Who can you turn to? Who can you tell? Would they understand that, you just woke up, and you're not okay, all right, or fine?
One thing about married life and having a kid: You are not allowed such indulgences. I imagine people would get annoyed and tell me that I have responsibilities to my family and my job, that it's adolescent and I need to just keep marching on, that it will pass.
What if we need to feel fundamentally wrong, sometimes? Like nothing is all right? And maybe sometimes we just need to lie in bed and feel it, get to know the darkness right when you wake, the time when things are new but they're not, when you have the whole day ahead of you but you know it won't be any better than the last.
And none of it may be true, but just sensing it and getting intimate with it may be necessary.
